HAPPY NEW YEAR♥

一直以来我都觉得自己隐藏得很好
原来一直都有人看穿我
只是他们不拆穿我
我像个傻瓜一样以为自己很了
==；
今天是2009年的最后一天
也是我2009年的最后一篇文章
人嘛每次都说
希望在新的一年都会过得比较快乐
心愿一堆堆
然而我倒是希望我不再那么死心眼
虽然我知道人对感情专一是好事
但是像我这样简直是在虐待我自己
就连我自己本身都觉得无能为力了

要我突然改变自己的个性
我想我朋友也接受不了吧?
给我一点时间好吗?
我会让自己过得比现在更好的
至少变回以前那个我
笑容是发自内心的我
而不是笑脸背后是张哭泣的脸

我的缺点就是对自己严重缺乏信心
这是我的死穴嘛
但我努力的
加油 abby tan =)

RELEASE =)

你知道吗?
其实人类的大脑是一个很奇妙的构造
人类的思绪由心来控制
然而感觉不是说你要隐藏就能隐藏的了
再专一的人经过时间的考研岁月的摧残
意志力都能胜过一切
我依然相信上帝对任何事情都是公平的
唯独是情感不能勉强
不是你说你想爱有多爱就能拥有

如果有一天你被一个喜欢的人拒绝
请不要以为自己是全世界最惨的人
你应该庆幸自己喜欢的人没有拖泥带水
利用你爱他的心情来得到他想要的利益
这至少证明了他不想伤害你
如果你埋怨他的真诚伤透了你
当你冷静过后能否考虑原谅他?
他们无法回馈你们的爱
把伤害度减至最低
已经是对你们的爱最大的回报

这些年来
笑得那么自然
自认演技已经进步得比专业演员还厉害
也许偶然还是会无意露出伤感的表情让别人看见
又或者是从我悲伤的问句和文章猜测我的心情
就是等待的过程太漫长也很累人
所以我才觉得应该要对自己好一点
我要的其实很简单
只要他心里有我而我心里也有他的就可以了
现在的他对我已经渐渐没有意义了
既然选择放开就不再隐瞒爱的泪痕

我...并没有你们想象中的那么脆弱♥

♥CHRISTMAS EVE♥

噢
平安夜 ><,
第19个单身的平安夜和圣诞节
哈哈~
如果这世界上真的存在圣诞老公公
那我可不可以许愿?
听说老公公只会替乖小孩实现愿望
我是乖小孩啊^^,
你听见我的愿望了吗?
我只想我身边最亲的人
过得平安，幸福，快乐
还有..还有..
我想要个会把我放在心里的人 =)
=[阿门]= muackz..

MEANINGLESS

you guys know
no matter how much you love your companion
no matter how much you care about him/her
it's meaningless if he/she doesn't love you in return
and what can we do is just to leave

HAPPY TOGETHER♥

冬至~冬至~冬至节快乐~
汤圆汤圆今年没得吃..
爸妈出国了，我要吃汤圆啦 @@/
人说过冬比过年大
我又长大一岁了
不知觉已经20了
2字出头，前途依然茫茫无望
我这几年来到底是在干什么的用?

♥各位♥幸福快乐噢^^

ENDED

一年，两年，三年..
多少年过去了?
我知道我对你不只是好朋友的关系
但却也不肯定那是不是喜欢的感觉
不是否认
只是不想在不肯定的情况下承认
好感算情感的因素之一吗?

还记得小时候
我曾告诉过你
你却逃避了我
吓得我后来得跟另一个知情的朋友串通
来欺骗你说这不过是一场玩笑
我们才恢复了原来的关系
当时的笑脸背后是一颗掩饰不了失落的心

直到后来上了中学
一起打球一起玩
每天的每天都让我体会到
如果是以"兄弟"的身份
会觉得比较自在而且自然
就算后来你有了女朋友
我还是把自己的情感隐藏在心里深处

我每天都在想啊
如果我是一个有外在美的女生
如果我是一个有好身段的女生
你会不会喜欢我?
【哈】
这是个假设性的问题
永远没有答案

我不会忘记那种感觉
可以被你牵着手是一种幸福
虽然那只是一晚的梦而已
你心里的痛楚你还放不下
但相信你也知道
你不会是一个人
而我也知道一直以来
你只是把我当妹妹
酸的苦的都无所谓
只要你开心就好
这些年我都这样跟自己说

好朋友
这是我们最后的定义

是不是到了该结束的时候了?
你的心迟早会容纳另一个灵魂
这是一段漫长的单恋旅程..
长得我都忘了当初那份原有的坚持..

❤ YOU ❤

❤的感觉有什么能代替?

没有

有些感觉出现过就不会消失

消失了就不会回来...

｡:.*･ﾟ❤ 愿他幸福❤ﾟ･*:.｡

BREAKABLE

别人面前微笑的人的我
和
夜深人静暗地里莫名情绪化的我
那个才是真正的自我?
两个都是我..
只是在不同的环境我有不同的情绪
我爱面子嘛
我不喜欢在别人面前展现我懦弱的那一面
唯独在这小小的空间里
我才能对自己诚实些些
也许我真的太闲，时间太多
才足以让我胡思乱想
我承认啊
我本来就是比较偏悲观型的人
我悲得连我身边的人都逐渐离我而去了
那又怎样?至少我没有存心计去伤害别人
我还是原来的我啊

如果你觉得我爱人的方式让人觉得很沉重
那至少我没有爱的死缠烂打...
也许你觉得我的句子充满了悲哀
会不会是你也深同感受，与我的文章产生共鸣了呢?
虽然我已忘了，爱人是什么感觉
有多久没真心对一个人有感觉了呢?
久的我也有点忘了

如果世上真的有赐人愿望的神仙
我可不可以奢侈的要求他送我一个不寂寞的夜吗?
你可以取笑我不甘寂寞
但你不可以否认只要是人
就是会怕寂寞的侵袭

TIRING

我要的不过是一个可以跟我说话
有事没事会闹我跟我开玩笑的人
我心情忧闷他会陪我说心事
有节日性的日子他会陪我过
我不需要会陪我哭泣的人
至少在我需要拥抱的时候他的肩膀可以借我靠
我想要一个可以保护我的人
而不是我一味自个儿像个傻瓜一样
到最后才知道原来只是自己单方面的守候
怎么每次别人伤心难过找我
我总是以我最快的速度守在他
然而我难过时
陪在我身边的永远只有我自己
别人说我不是时我微笑以对
别人背叛我最忠的情感我默不吭声
我总是逆来顺受不对了吗?
可以把手借我吗?
让我勇敢地做一分钟的梦
至少在梦中我是一个微笑着的英雄

EVERLASTING

刚参加宴会回来
大姐终于跟他的爱人步入了婚姻生活
看见他们甜蜜幸福的样子
我的内心不禁呐喊着 ： 我也想结婚啊
【笑】
能执手共患难
一起面对未来也是件不容易的事
遇见了另一半要有勇气去追求
毕竟黑白世界太单调
总要有个人为你的世界谱上一些色彩
♥祝福你们♥
jie. wish you:
Happy Everlasting Couple

♥

今天啊..
接到在中六认识的朋友的电话
邀我出席他们的聚会
老实说我还真的有点意外
毕竟我们已经有一段时间没见面了
如果一年前我没有放弃我的学业
现在的我正为自己刚结束的考期而感到兴奋

如果让你选择一个可以共闯难关的朋友
我会是你的选择吗?
原来人生不是说你愿意付出
不计较多与少
和真心对待别人就可以换来友谊
曾经有太多以往所以才会早就今日的阴影
谁是我的光明灯?
带我远离黑暗的角落..

MAZE

在感觉最深最真的时候离开
也许是最美好的
那份回忆
将永远都无人可以取代的了
人嘛，总是爱转牛角尖
爱过又如何?伤过又怎样?
不然怎么清醒过来
每个人都需要经历过某些旅途才有所领悟
当有一天你想开了，恭喜你
不过别人也许还困在自己的圈圈里
没人可以闪躲
这只是时间长短的问题
就算爱的收不回来也无所谓
黑白世界太单调
人们总是要有点彩色回忆陪伴以后..
傻过..并不是一件可耻的事...
如果爱情有答案可言
就不会出现那么多问题..

如果有一天你回头，
我会笑着告诉你："我很好"..

SO WHAT?

逞强又如何?

我依然很在乎..

假装坚强又如何?

我依然会渴望..

漠视又如何?

我还是会想起..

总总道出，我是个懦弱的女人...

REGRETTABLE

不要把别人对你的好当作是理所当然

总有一天当你回头的时候

你会发觉到

你自以为一直守在你身边跟在你后头的那位守候者

早已离开的无影无踪

有时不是相爱恨晚

只是你不曾留心注意到你的身边早已出现了那么一个他..

THE SHOW

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

LENKA

BEGINNING

原来喜欢一个人的感觉是可以这么随意
曾经以为已经可以隐藏很好的情感瞬间被自己出卖
用了几年的时间来让自己淡忘的感觉
却可以被别人用几秒的时间化为乌有
如果可以一直待在自己喜欢的人身边
哪怕只是会被他当成妹妹般呵护
我想女生是愿意这样做的...

人的情感是多么的脆弱
往往败在上帝的考验
禁不起考验的关系虽会带来一段时期的失落安然
但总比在投入了全部情感的时候再来失望好

如果说分手是其中一方不懂得珍惜
那还倒不如说上帝的安排是一个玩笑
让人们经历了种种挫折才赫然发现
原来怀念的还是曾经那段最纯真的爱情

LIMIT

男人啊
总是在触动人心之后消失不见

男人啊
为什么不喜欢却可以吻他?
你难道不知道没有感情的吻不过是嘴唇碰触的礼仪?

男人啊
为什么可以这分钟喜欢下分钟忘却?
你难道不知道这可能会伤害别人?

男人啊
你可知道你的无心可能会让人在意
你可知道你的散漫可能会让人不安

男人啊
要人一个人住进心里其实很容易
但如果要让一个人离开那是一件多么费力的事

男人啊
你的思绪我抓膜不了
既然如此
就让你从此在我的脑影记忆库上锁

男人啊
恭喜你
成功的征服了女人的心

两性关系

为什么男人与女人之间总有一方面逃不过爱情的诱惑？

男人与女人之间的关系本来就没有纯友谊

是我想的太天真？还是这个世界本来就是跟复杂而我却没有发现

男女之间的关系不是从友情开始爱情结束，

就是从爱情开始友情结束，

看起来好像很单纯很简单，其实是很复杂...

如果说可以任性的女人是幸福的，

那也许是因为她背后有个可以包容他一切的男人...

LMAO

few days ago i had po a sentences as my PM in msn
"男人啊男人，似醉还醒；女人啊女人，似醒还醉..."
and then many people keep asking me what it means
better i po and explain here to show all of you
otherwise i'm tiring to keep answer one by one

男人啊男人，似醉还醒，意思是说:
当一个男人明明知道有个女人喜欢他的时候，他却可以假装不知道，装傻扮朦将；
[明明就是清醒着，却可以不闻不问的，这和醉了又有什么分别?]

然而

女人啊女人，似醒还醉，意思是说:
但是当一个女人明明知道自己喜欢的男人不喜欢自己的时候，却还是可以欺骗自己说，
也许那个男人是有苦忠的
[明明就是陶醉在男人的谎言当中却依然欺骗自己说自己很清醒，
这和宿醉又有什么分别?]

understand? 明白了吗 ==??

p/s：以上不过是我自己的看法而已，纯属个人言论...不要炸我...谢谢...

TOUCH ME

当你曾经用心为一个男人做一样事情后却的不到任何的反应时，

你会怎样...？
不要说“只要他快乐，我就会快乐” 这种傻话
我们都是人类，人类的情感是多么的脆弱，我们不是圣人，
没有必要为了某些事情而隐瞒自己的情感
但是爱面子的我却从不会去表现我对一个人的在乎
以前我知道他是在乎我的，但是也许现在已经不一样了，，
每个人都有隐藏自己的时候，如果你悄悄的发现了这点时，请温柔体贴的为他隐瞒，
至少让他不会感到不知所措...好吗...?

APPRECIATED

我想珍惜你，还来得及吗...?

FINALLY

FINAL DECISION

I had buy nokia 5800

goodbye N73 hello 5800

BANKRUPT T.T

安静

我又在看周杰伦的mv了
没错，是“又”
每当晚上失眠或是想哭却哭不出的时候
我就会看
每次看到周杰伦的mv时
我会异常的安静
每次都希望能安静得听，安静的看
心灵只有在那短短几分钟的时间里得到安慰
我曾经说过我的眼泪比我倔强好几倍
多少日子以来，乏味的心让我觉得
很多事情还是会让我感觉到难过
但却觉得没有像孩子般哭泣的必要
反而看着感人的银幕更能让我宣泄自己的情绪
紧绷着的眼泪线瞬间变得轻松
心情却无法再同时感到释放 ...

[轉貼] 被誤傳了幾千年的八句俗語

1，“嫁雞隨雞，嫁狗隨狗”，原為“嫁乞隨乞，嫁叟隨叟”意思是一個女人即使嫁給乞丐或者是年齡大的人也要隨其生活一輩子。隨著時代的變遷，這一俗語轉音成雞成狗了。

2，“三個臭皮匠，頂個諸葛亮”，“皮匠”實際上是“裨將”的諧音，“裨將”在古代是指“副將”，原意是指三個副將的智慧合起來能頂一個諸葛亮。流傳中，人們將“裨將”說成了“皮匠”。

3，“不見棺材不落淚”，本是“不見親棺不落淚”，並不是見了任何棺材都落淚。訛變為“不見棺材不落淚”，如果不管誰的棺材，只要見到就落淚，那就有點太莫名其妙了。

4，“有眼不識金鑲玉”，本是“有眼不識荊山玉”。荊，指古代楚國；“荊山玉”，是玉匠在荊山發現的玉。

5，“不到黃河心不死”，本是“不到烏江心不死”。烏江，項羽他老人家自刎的地方。烏江訛變成黃河，真是讓人無從解釋了。

6，“捨不得孩子套不住狼”，本是“捨不得鞋子套不住狼”意思是要打到狼，就要不怕跑路，不怕費鞋。不過這個我還能理解點，因為好像四川那邊管鞋叫孩子。如果真的拿活生生的孩子去套狼，也太KB啦！

7，“狗屁不通”，這個成語最初是“狗皮不通”。狗的表皮沒有汗腺，酷夏，狗要借助舌頭來散發體內的燥熱。“狗皮不通”就是指狗的身體這個特點，“屁”是污濁的像征，對於文理不通的東西，以屁來喻，也就將就吧！

8，“王八蛋”這是民間的一句罵人話。實際上，這句話的原來面目是“忘八端”。古代“八端”是指“孝，悌，忠，信，禮，義，廉，恥”，此八端指的是做人之根本，忘記了這“八端”也就是忘了基本的做人根本，可是後來卻被訛變成“王八蛋”。

COME BACK TO ME

The rain falls on my windows
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop all
Our bad memories
Cause the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened

(Come back) Baby come back to me
(Come back) I'll be everything you need
(Come back) Baby come back to me
(Come back) Boy, you're one in a million

(Come back) Baby come back to me
(Come back) I'll be everything you need
(Come back) Baby come back to me
(Come back) You're one in a million
(One in a million)

On the east side of Manhatten,
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave it alone.

I wish that he would listen to her
Side of the story
It isn't that bad, it

by UTADA HIKARU

OCCASIONS

my dear sista's birthday is coming soon
what should i buy for her...?
any suggestion mou...?

BETWEEN

today is my ex-schoolmate's birthday
say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ginger wong
lolzz.. sweet sweet 19

LOST

i really don't know whether is your problem or mine
what can i do...?
friendship is so far for me..
friendship is a long journey for me...

SO WHAT?

obviously i'm not a GOOD FRIEND
say BYE BYE to me la
noobY

BEFORE LONG

呆呆的坐在電腦熒幕的前座
一次又一次地重復着同樣的動作
當我看着你傳給我的電郵時

倔強的淚水變得不再逞強
咸咸的淚水從臉頰劃落至嘴角
努力揚起的嘴角在此刻顯得如此沒落？
表面微笑的謊言不攻自破···

在我們的關系逐漸變得沉默無話的同時
我的心何嘗不是在淌着血？
你可層感受到我眼里的失落？
我自欺欺人的告訴自己這不過是一場美麗的誤會···

心里的痛你可有感覺？
心痛是時間拉遠了我們之間的距離···
心痛是時間掠奪了我們之間的信任···
心痛是時間掠奪了我們之間的默契···
心痛是不知從何時開始變得
就連說話也要透過冷冰冰的電郵才肯流露那一絲的誠懇···
心痛是不知從何時開始我們變得對對方隱瞞···

我們都忘了當初的那份純真，
我以為我會沒什么，
口是心非的說着就讓回憶變成黑白畫面，
對自己我是那么的不坦白，
為什么我們之間出現了一副"心薔"？
阻擋了我們的關懷···

也許，
這是上帝給我們的一場考驗，
現在的上帝肯定在微笑着，
因為上帝才是這考驗中最后的勝利者，
我們不是輸在起跑點，
我們不是輸在時間里，
我們都輸在彼此不再信任了，
我是多么的不愿意看見上帝繼續囂張，
但我卻能夠做什么？

我說過如果有一天當你站在成功的舞臺上時，
我將會坐在觀眾席為你鼓掌，
其實我更想成為在你失落哭泣時為你遞上紙巾的那位，
與你一起承擔失落的痛苦更勝過與你分享你的快樂···
然而我知道，在這個空缺里，
我永遠都只會是一個候補···

我不曾想過要放棄我們之間的這分情義，
只是我累了，
偶爾膽缺的停下腳步，
所以我選擇了逃避，
請再一次原諒我的軟弱···

曾經何時，
千言萬語哽上咽喉，
欲言又止，
再被無情的固執打回肚里···
怎么我們彼此變得如此陌生？
我很抱歉我對你造成的傷害，
也許同時間我也應該感謝你對我的傷害，
你說我們都長大了··
然而長大的定義又在哪里？

淚水再次模糊了視線···
你知道嗎？
有時候選擇離開，只不過是為了不讓你看見我哭泣的臉龐···

TEARER

i admit that i'm a crybaby
but dont know since when i started not to tears front of those stranger axcept my family
it's a bit hard for me to show my weakness front of them no matter how touch they tell and do well
i think most of them around also will be like this right?
i might be more special cause i be concerned about face-saving
my teardrop is more stubborn than myself
SOMEONE said... they cant even know what am i thinking about cause i hide myself well, i over protect myself out of those injure,harm and hurt given by others...
SOMEONE said... i'm sanguine, i got no secret front of them, always living in a happy life, just like a innocent kid that dont know every complicated things out of the world...
you might ask which is the TRUE me, what i going to answer is BOTH also the true me..
i just show the different me in a different situation...
i like to write articles, no matter in what states of affairs, i can write anythings if i got inspiration
so... do not judge my mood through my articles...

WHINY

sorry for neglecting my blog so badly this time
i had NOTHING to blog recently
i got no idea for it
so damn tired about my works recently
somethings messed me up but it is pass
and i cant remember it clearly too
so leave it....

GODNESS

WELL WELL WELL...

I KNOW I NEED TO "KEEP FIT"

ZZZ

MERCI

i cant be selfish because i got no confidence that i can handle it well...
is it a time to say goodbye...?
cant deny that i'm not willing to be part with them
i might be more merciless sometime

CRYBABY

although i had worry so much before,nothing had change...
so what is the point for me to worry anymore?
well, i just hope that i could spent my life or maybe my time in my life more better only marr...
yes... i hope so... i think for all human being also hope that can be like this gua?
but i couldn't do anything in this...
or maybe just like what my friend told me...
actually i could do it better then now, just im avoiding....
yea~ i think so... im AVOIDING...
im not satisfied what im do honestly...
but what can i do?
im still so confusing...
i lost my way at all...
im not interest in everything right now...
no careerism, no dream or maybe no hope also?
haha! i dont know....
the brutal life had bring me back to the fact...
haiz... i got no confidence that i could handle and settle the problem i meet....
im useless? ooo yea... i admit that im cowardly...
since when i become so timid?
i also dont know...
please... who can safe me?
i realize that only me can safe myself...

I'M DEAD

Yea...
same as topic...
i think abbY tan was dead in this second...
i dont know what the fuck is going on...

please forgive me okay?
forgive what i had done and make you all hurt...
i felt so labarious sometime...
i felt that im so useless everytime...
i thought i coule be a optimistic people all the time...
i hope to be...

HYPNOTIZE

I thought i'm tough enough

IT'S FUNNY

OOO...I GOT NO IDEA

ooo... can't deny that you make me understand what's the meaning of"friendship"
ooo... can't deny that i'm emo again in this few days
ooo... what else can do? my mama born me as a women
ooo... surely got a few days moody in a month
ooo... i got no money to use enough
ooo... i got no idea about my future
ooo... i got so many question mark in my heart
ooo... i dont know what am i going to do next
ooo... i need to travel
ooo... i want a peace

NOTICE

anyone out there know the way that can buy and get the colour lens in a short period?

leave me a message please ><,

GOSHSSSSS

OH SH*T

I NEED SLIMMING DOWN RIGHT NOW

OMFG

oh yeaaaaaaaaa

LMAO

Somebody call 999
Shawty fire burning on my sweet house

Whoa

I gotta cool her down
She won't bring the roof to ground on my sweet house

Whoa

DONT CHA

YOU killing me softly
YOU ruin my life
YOU make my life abnormal
what cha doing?
what cha waiting for?

GET LOST PLEASE

BEFORE LONG

gosh... my holy sh*t ...
now only i realize you're such a bit*h
you had do so many vile conduct behind of me
WTH
i treat you by my heart and you treat me by your ass?
and i look like idiot for you?
FINE
you're really a villain...
i felt so shame to had a friend like you in my life
i'm so foolishly to realize you're so FAKE by using so many years
DAMN
this is a last post for you
from now on
our friendship is END
there're no relation between me and you anymore
and
really wanna thanks to you for letting me know that and learnt many things from you
fcuk

BELIEVE

would you believe in FOREVER?
i'll try to believe it
WHY?
this is because if you try to believe it
maybe you will feel more happiness..
BUT
even the english word “believe” also has a “lie” hidden in the middle

UNTITLED

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

BY SIMPLE PLAN

HOLY MAMA

talk to me
i'm kinda emo
yes... i always try hard to show you all how happy am i
i just will show how sorrowful i was in my post

why?keep asking myself why in my heart
others gals and guys who same age with me can do whatever they like
go wherever they want
having fun with whoever they love
but why not am i
when i was still 'young' [i'm 19 now] last time
i means in secondary sch
i dont care the consequences or aftermath that the things i do
don't think do first
ponteng,ponteng la..
piercing,piercing la..
clubbing,clubbing la..
smoking,smoking looo..
what else? of course wont addicted in drug laaa...
siao merrr...

i cant even think that what will going to happened with me after gratuated from sch
i take off my earing and leave 2 pairs in special part
for commemorative that my mama cry because of my revolt
i stay at home also even i didnt go to sch
i skip school but not ponteng school
i didnt went out that late as before
i didnt went clubbing after the arguement when she know i go club
i stop smoking also after the arguement when she know i smoke
i do houesework
i back to my daddy office although i dunno what can i help
and just sit front of my lappy and do nothing or maybe blogging like right now
i tried hard to show them i change because of them
i know they pamper me a lot
so funny right? i do this all because of my family
yes.. maybe i'm not that mature and independent compare to my brother and sista
i constrain myself much and more than before

i'm getting mad...
siao laaaa...
all my friend know i'm a pessimist
AGE 17,18 & 19 in my life is suck
if you guy ask me what am i do and what i get in this few years
i going to ans you NOTHING

work home sleep work home sleep work home sleep
or maybe some entertainment sometime
other else WORK HOME SLEEP
what a boring life
is that my problem?
i not appreciate the happy like one enjoys?

...WTH...

COOLISH

do you guys know
how hurt am i?
how disappoint am i?
i try hard to engage in those bullshit relation
and what i get in the end?
NOTHING even a falsehood that can make me feel warm

do you guys know
i'm just a kid
i'm easy to get happy and feel happiness
i dont need any valuable things from you
i just need a sweet embrace or maybe a sentense to show your solicitude when i need you
i'm satisfied for it
and guess what？
i'm always be a loner in the end
no one will be there when i need help
no one notice my exists..


I'M TIRING ABOUT THE WAY THIS BE
THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW
MAYBE NOT YOUR FAULT JUST I'M OVER CARE AND THINK TOO MUCH
YOU ALL DON'T NEED ME AND I'LL BE FINE TOO WITHOUT YOU
SO... LEAVE ME NONE...

心语

Heart 輕易被你擄獲
讓你主宰我的快樂
不知該向你要求什麼
直覺該信任些什麼

Heart 一愛就很忐忑
常會超出我的負荷
或許該清楚表達什麼
還是我該勇敢些什麼

love in my heart 要付什麼代價
Ah love in my heart 怎麼分辨真假
Oh love in my heart 你說的話 會真的實現嗎

憑一顆心 綁住永恆 憑愛的深 賭上一次青春
我們 都太嫩 經不起風 吹皺靈魂
靠你的心 短暫安穩 一秒一分 像夢一般透明
抓緊 我的心 說你愛我 要有決心

間奏

憑一顆心 綁住永恆 憑愛的深 賭上一次青春
我們 都太嫩 經不起風 吹皺靈魂
靠你的心 短暫安穩 一秒一分 像夢一般透明
抓緊 我的心 說你愛我 要有決心

Heart 曾經如此寂寞
直到被你投下石頭
從此發現心湖的背後
那個石頭 被我日夜 琢磨

BY 何以奇

YESTERDAY

I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun will
Rise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is it
All reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, all
The broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they
Can take the future that wel never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all
The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the future
Holds, or least where the story goes, i never believed untill now, i know il see you again im
Sure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on your
Face but they cant take yesterday,

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they take the music that wel never play, all the
Broken dreams take everythin, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they can
Take the future that wel never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the
Broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so much
Time, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments we
Made im lookin back on yesterday

LEONA LEWIS

LOW

how sorrowful it was if you had fall for someone who dont love you
you can take the future that we never go
The worst way to miss someone
is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
sound so sad right
that is the sadness things in life

UNTITLE

now only i realize how much i care about you
heart breakable...
sad because cant do anything for you
and you cant share things with me...

R.I.P

...B.Leong...
felt SHOCK & SAD to know the news
it's happened so sudden
i'm worry about you my buddy
be tough kay
remember this..
i'll always stay by your side
so please... take care yourself as well..

HAIZ...

WHY CAN'T I SLIM DOWN ?.?
...WTH...

WAITING

the road has been too long
waiting has been to tiring
finally i know that we're still the same
and nothing could change after 2 years gone

CHOOSE

no ones know how hard i work for it
you treat me invisibility
resign?

F**K-UP

a reason for smoking last time
2 years passed and finally you're back
and guess what?
feel so complicated

DOESN'T A MATTER

Cry because obviously that they are still got love and feeling to each others...
Stop crying and tell myself that IT'S NO BIG DEAL

COULDN'T BE

touch my lip and hold me in your arms...
could i?

LEAVING

i know
no matter what i do
how i feel
where i go
i won't catch his mind

TIAMO

-[V]-
je taime
sukidaiyo
watashiwa anatao aishidematsu

this is the word i would like to tell you the most

UNLIMITED

he is single but not available
so am i
my heart belongs to you
the distance between you and me are far
and the road had been so lonely
should i keep going on?

COLOURNESS

the colour of hapiness is black & white without you
my world is raining the whole night

GRUM

would rather grumble about the FATE than better accept the truth

TEARS

time pass and goes
nobody can manage it well
goodbye my TEARS

WHY?

everything is just wrong in timing
what can i do?
i'm wasting my time
don't force me
please... i really dont know what else can do

LET IT BE

it's impossible to being happy all the time
and what can we do is just let begone be begone

LONER

i always know that loving you is lonesome
but it's out of my control too to stop thinking of you

STAMINA

give me willpower
make sure that i really can leave you down
although i'll feel lonely

EMPTY SPACE

i'll try to get myself far away from you
so please
leave me alone too

FAILURE

i can see the shadow of "HER" through your eyes
i can feel the sadness in your heart
i try to catch your mind
i may of FAILED but i had love you from the start

BETTER MAN

people
you should take responsibility through the things you had done

IRRECOVERABLE

Love begins with a smile
grows with a kiss
and ends with a tear...

OH PLEASE!

.::goshsssss::.
:
i'm
:
getting
:
MAD
MAD
MAD

somebody save me?

CORDIALLY

a Simple and Sincere wishes to my dearest sweetie pal
.::.Wong Syia Er.::.
happy birthday to you^^
**huggies**

WITHOUT YOU

if you're happy
i'll happy too
i'm not that great as you think
just because i L.O.V.E you

BLESSING

1 am..
just arrived home
sing K moment
a farewell party for my friend
wish her all the best in future

J0KE

they love each other
but why can't they been together?
lord is always like to fooling people around
what else can do?

CONFUSION

is time to go isn't?
is time to left isn't?
is time to say GOODBYE isn't?

POKER FACE

i'm always wearing a poker face in front of you
i don't even dare to let you know how was my feeling right now
i dont even care to keep quite always as long as you happy

NICKER

i don't care
none of my business anymore
get out of my world
don't try to ruin my life
or else i'll let you die nicely

SAVE ME

gastralgia
.
.
is
.
.
killing
.
.
me

UNTITLE

hmmmm....
another movie day...lolzzz...
"I CORRUPT ALL THE COP" for today
3 movies in a week?
sweat [==;]
quite ENJOY too

AWAKEN

my parent went to BALI yesterday
seen there're nothing to do
me and my brother,sister go to 1u watch movie today
"night at the museum II" & "X-men"
lolzzz
you're right...
watch two movie in a day
lala~
i appreciate the time spend with my family
when i was young i didn't care about them
><,
now only i know they are the most important people for me in my life

LOVE IS GONE

feeling is G.O.N.E
and L.O.V.E doesn't come
i know you don't love me

WASTAGE

i think you had express your attitude so clearly
no matter how hard i learn
it's wasteful

TIRESOME

i'm tiring of waiting
but i'm not that strong as i expected
set me free please

EFFORTLESS

you know how much effort i put to lay you down?
you know how hard i force myself not to think about you again?
but why you come back and distrupt the peace of my world?

MISS

finally the song belongs to you rang by my phone
i saw your name appear in the screen
do you know how much i miss you?

HOPELESS

no matter how good i treat you
you won't realise my exsist
because there're already got someone living in your heart

MONEY MONEY COME

TOKYO's car show~




when can i got enough money to change my SWIFT become like this?
cool man
but of course i want the same colour la``
so far i got no money T.T






HELLO KITTY's SWIFT





this is quite cute BUT i dont wanna make my car like this at RAWANG!!
zzz..

RELEASE

i close my eyes and dream of you
there's more than life is only bitterness and lies
i'll let you go and set me free this time

WITH YOU

men cried because he really enamored of you
women cried because she really make a decision to leave
could you please hold him/her hand tightly if they cried because of you?
this proof that they really treat you by wholehearted

ADMITTEDLY

I miss you
more that i could say
life is nothing without L.O.V.E
love is nothing without Y.O.U

SPEECHLESS

the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
what had i done in these two years?
do NOTHING

OPTIMISM

yeaH``
my father is right
life is short
so why don't we be a optimist?

HATE or LOVE

love = care
care = love
love = hate
hate = love
H.A.T.E because of L.O.V.E
it can be so simple sometime
but why do we always make it so complicated?
just tell him/her that you love them

ISN'T

stress
.
.
is
.
.
killing
.
.
me

MORON

i had never 'n ever think that wanna hurt people before
but why people always like to come and hurt me?
i'm not that strong like what you see through your eyes
i'm a feeblish who always need protection from others also

PASSIONLESS

i know perfectly well that it was an impasse in front of me
but still i'm moving throughward unconsciously
and this make me fully aware that how coldhearted you're
no ones know the tears i cry for

P/S:THANK YOU

hey guys out there,
no need worry about me...
i'll be fine after express out my feeling``
i'm not that pessimism...
i just like to write article
i'll release out my feeling through writting
exspecially the things make me feel sad
that's why i always look upset in my writting paper

no worries kay?
i'm good in everything``
thanks for the concern and pamper me always
*huggies* <=> *muackzzz*

THE ROSE

some say love
it is a river that drowns the tender reed
some say love
it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love
it is a hunger an endless aching need
i say love
it is a flower and you it's only seed
it's the heart
afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
it's the dream
afraid of walking that never takes the chance
it's the one
who won't be taken who can't seem to give
and the soul
afraid of dying that never learns to live
when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think
that love is only for the lucky and the strong
just remember
in the winter for beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose

MEANINGLESS

you guys know
no matter how much you love your companion
no matter how much you care about him/her
it's meaningless if he/she doesn't love you in return
and what can we do is just to leave

PATHETIC FALLACY

L for Love and L for Lies too
my world full of L words
it's not LOVE but LIES
you're a pathetic fallacy in my L.I.F.E
leaving you is the golden path for me

SIGH

i hope i could sleep forever
because...
in dream he love me back

SIMPLETON

what am i waiting for?
i'm expectancy of your call
finally my phone rang
but i couldn't get the answer i wanted in the screen

LIFE IMPRISONMENT

she cried because of me again
he angry because of me again
yeah
me cause argument happened again

lord
do you heard me?
i'm tired about this
i'm fed-up about this
i'm lost inside
could you bring this go?

GRIEF

should i L.O.V.E you?
i got no confidence that i can manage it
could you heard me?

CRUEL LOVE

i thought i could forget you
and you left me none in the end
it's doesn't a matter
it'll be FINE

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back.
Do not expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart.
But if it does not, be content that it grew in yours.

*CHEERIO*

TRACELESS

i thought i'd forget you

BEFORE THIS
i smoke because i miss YOU [I think]

AND NOW
i stop smoking because of HIM but not you anymore