CRYBABY

although i had worry so much before,nothing had change...
so what is the point for me to worry anymore?
well, i just hope that i could spent my life or maybe my time in my life more better only marr...
yes... i hope so... i think for all human being also hope that can be like this gua?
but i couldn't do anything in this...
or maybe just like what my friend told me...
actually i could do it better then now, just im avoiding....
yea~ i think so... im AVOIDING...
im not satisfied what im do honestly...
but what can i do?
im still so confusing...
i lost my way at all...
im not interest in everything right now...
no careerism, no dream or maybe no hope also?
haha! i dont know....
the brutal life had bring me back to the fact...
haiz... i got no confidence that i could handle and settle the problem i meet....
im useless? ooo yea... i admit that im cowardly...
since when i become so timid?
i also dont know...
please... who can safe me?
i realize that only me can safe myself...

I'M DEAD

Yea...
same as topic...
i think abbY tan was dead in this second...
i dont know what the fuck is going on...

please forgive me okay?
forgive what i had done and make you all hurt...
i felt so labarious sometime...
i felt that im so useless everytime...
i thought i coule be a optimistic people all the time...
i hope to be...

HYPNOTIZE

I thought i'm tough enough

IT'S FUNNY

OOO...I GOT NO IDEA

ooo... can't deny that you make me understand what's the meaning of"friendship"
ooo... can't deny that i'm emo again in this few days
ooo... what else can do? my mama born me as a women
ooo... surely got a few days moody in a month
ooo... i got no money to use enough
ooo... i got no idea about my future
ooo... i got so many question mark in my heart
ooo... i dont know what am i going to do next
ooo... i need to travel
ooo... i want a peace

NOTICE

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GOSHSSSSS

OH SH*T

I NEED SLIMMING DOWN RIGHT NOW

OMFG

oh yeaaaaaaaaa

LMAO

Somebody call 999
Shawty fire burning on my sweet house

Whoa

I gotta cool her down
She won't bring the roof to ground on my sweet house

Whoa

DONT CHA

YOU killing me softly
YOU ruin my life
YOU make my life abnormal
what cha doing?
what cha waiting for?

GET LOST PLEASE

BEFORE LONG

gosh... my holy sh*t ...
now only i realize you're such a bit*h
you had do so many vile conduct behind of me
WTH
i treat you by my heart and you treat me by your ass?
and i look like idiot for you?
FINE
you're really a villain...
i felt so shame to had a friend like you in my life
i'm so foolishly to realize you're so FAKE by using so many years
DAMN
this is a last post for you
from now on
our friendship is END
there're no relation between me and you anymore
and
really wanna thanks to you for letting me know that and learnt many things from you
fcuk

BELIEVE

would you believe in FOREVER?
i'll try to believe it
WHY?
this is because if you try to believe it
maybe you will feel more happiness..
BUT
even the english word “believe” also has a “lie” hidden in the middle

UNTITLED

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

BY SIMPLE PLAN

HOLY MAMA

talk to me
i'm kinda emo
yes... i always try hard to show you all how happy am i
i just will show how sorrowful i was in my post

why?keep asking myself why in my heart
others gals and guys who same age with me can do whatever they like
go wherever they want
having fun with whoever they love
but why not am i
when i was still 'young' [i'm 19 now] last time
i means in secondary sch
i dont care the consequences or aftermath that the things i do
don't think do first
ponteng,ponteng la..
piercing,piercing la..
clubbing,clubbing la..
smoking,smoking looo..
what else? of course wont addicted in drug laaa...
siao merrr...

i cant even think that what will going to happened with me after gratuated from sch
i take off my earing and leave 2 pairs in special part
for commemorative that my mama cry because of my revolt
i stay at home also even i didnt go to sch
i skip school but not ponteng school
i didnt went out that late as before
i didnt went clubbing after the arguement when she know i go club
i stop smoking also after the arguement when she know i smoke
i do houesework
i back to my daddy office although i dunno what can i help
and just sit front of my lappy and do nothing or maybe blogging like right now
i tried hard to show them i change because of them
i know they pamper me a lot
so funny right? i do this all because of my family
yes.. maybe i'm not that mature and independent compare to my brother and sista
i constrain myself much and more than before

i'm getting mad...
siao laaaa...
all my friend know i'm a pessimist
AGE 17,18 & 19 in my life is suck
if you guy ask me what am i do and what i get in this few years
i going to ans you NOTHING

work home sleep work home sleep work home sleep
or maybe some entertainment sometime
other else WORK HOME SLEEP
what a boring life
is that my problem?
i not appreciate the happy like one enjoys?

...WTH...

COOLISH

do you guys know
how hurt am i?
how disappoint am i?
i try hard to engage in those bullshit relation
and what i get in the end?
NOTHING even a falsehood that can make me feel warm

do you guys know
i'm just a kid
i'm easy to get happy and feel happiness
i dont need any valuable things from you
i just need a sweet embrace or maybe a sentense to show your solicitude when i need you
i'm satisfied for it
and guess what？
i'm always be a loner in the end
no one will be there when i need help
no one notice my exists..


I'M TIRING ABOUT THE WAY THIS BE
THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW
MAYBE NOT YOUR FAULT JUST I'M OVER CARE AND THINK TOO MUCH
YOU ALL DON'T NEED ME AND I'LL BE FINE TOO WITHOUT YOU
SO... LEAVE ME NONE...

心语

Heart 輕易被你擄獲
讓你主宰我的快樂
不知該向你要求什麼
直覺該信任些什麼

Heart 一愛就很忐忑
常會超出我的負荷
或許該清楚表達什麼
還是我該勇敢些什麼

love in my heart 要付什麼代價
Ah love in my heart 怎麼分辨真假
Oh love in my heart 你說的話 會真的實現嗎

憑一顆心 綁住永恆 憑愛的深 賭上一次青春
我們 都太嫩 經不起風 吹皺靈魂
靠你的心 短暫安穩 一秒一分 像夢一般透明
抓緊 我的心 說你愛我 要有決心

間奏

憑一顆心 綁住永恆 憑愛的深 賭上一次青春
我們 都太嫩 經不起風 吹皺靈魂
靠你的心 短暫安穩 一秒一分 像夢一般透明
抓緊 我的心 說你愛我 要有決心

Heart 曾經如此寂寞
直到被你投下石頭
從此發現心湖的背後
那個石頭 被我日夜 琢磨

BY 何以奇

YESTERDAY

I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun will
Rise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is it
All reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, all
The broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they
Can take the future that wel never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all
The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the future
Holds, or least where the story goes, i never believed untill now, i know il see you again im
Sure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on your
Face but they cant take yesterday,

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they take the music that wel never play, all the
Broken dreams take everythin, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they can
Take the future that wel never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the
Broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so much
Time, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments we
Made im lookin back on yesterday

LEONA LEWIS

LOW

how sorrowful it was if you had fall for someone who dont love you
you can take the future that we never go
The worst way to miss someone
is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
sound so sad right
that is the sadness things in life