CRUEL LOVE

i thought i could forget you
and you left me none in the end
it's doesn't a matter
it'll be FINE

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back.
Do not expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart.
But if it does not, be content that it grew in yours.

*CHEERIO*

TRACELESS

i thought i'd forget you

BEFORE THIS
i smoke because i miss YOU [I think]

AND NOW
i stop smoking because of HIM but not you anymore

DUMPS

why don't you let me go if you don't love me?
why will you lossen your grip when i try to hold you?
why you leave me alone?
why fooling with me with a senseless joke?

you always think that i'm a stronger
i may of failed
you leave me none
congratulation...
you're the winner in this game

I'M BACK

I'm back from thailand already
i got so many things want to say and write
but dont know where should i start
lolzz...
well... i meet so many friends in thailand
my old school friend
so shock when we meet each others on the street
haha... stunt for few minutes i think ><,
0mG... there're so many malaysian when to thailand this year
it's thailand CNY [泼水节]
it's so crowded man
i haven't get my picture that we take at thailand
if not i'll show you all how happy we was
haha~ when you step out the hotel, you'll definitely wet like hell
you got no chance to walk out and shop and buy or even you wanna having your dinner
this is the second time i when to thailand on CNY
they play more crazy than last year
but the funny thing is what i see is malaysian more than thai ==ll
just like we celebrating the NY more
lolz
they play water for two days
wa0~ how long it was...
i throwed by my uncle's friend into the tub full of ice and water
my godness... cold like hell
but... it is FUN "wink" hehe...
will update the photo when i get it..
stay tuned ^^

erm...
this time i just brought few things from thailand only
a wallet,accessories,shoes,make-up products,and a few bags as souviner for friends
yeah~ just spend rm400 .. wao .. excellent
hehe... i love buy shoe and accessories at thailand
they always get the new fashion more faster than malaysia
and i love thailand's watson too
there got many product that we couldn't found at m'sia
somemore, the mcD and pizza hut over there got pork ><.
more delicious .. yummy yummy..

TRAVEL

i'm going to thailand tomorrow
will be back on tuesday
take leave for two days on my working place
haiz..
i got not enough money to use
lolzz...
who can get me a job?
haha
see you guys...

CONFESSEDLY

i know
i know my parents put a lot of expection on me
i know they want me to be good
i know they want me to be happy always
i know they want me to have a effulgent life
i know i'm thier little princess
i know i'm just like a flower grow in a warm indoor since i was born
i know they're the only one who protect me the most in the world
i know they're the only one who will not give up me even a whole world leave me
YEA,i knew it ...
but what i do when i was young is
i hurt them much once and once
i rebel against them
i reply defiantly when they talk nicely to me
even now, i'm still the bad gal who hurt them the most
when i was small,i know if i cry badly,thier heart bleeding
when i was growth,i know if i saw them feel bad
my turn to heart bleeding as well

could i be the one who always good in your heart?

STOP IT

argue argue argue and what you know is just argue
everyday just put on the fire
okay , FINE! it's all my fault
happy now?
satisfied now?
WTF
i also hope to become a good gal
i'm not friendly sometime or maybe all the time
but you too itsn't it?
when you blame it on others please look at yourself too
i'm not the one who can always let you vent your anger
behave yourself please
i'm not mature
i can't lend you a hand when you all need some help
you thought my heart fell well?
how suffering for me it's was
please... let me go...
YEA.. im not happy at all...

SIGH

okay
people..
listen, i'll give up
i wont think such nonsense's things anymore
i know i wont catch his mind
he wont care about me
fine... it's over between us
as you guys know
im not a pretty and hot gal
im not slim but i work hard to make you all pay attention on me
i'm low confidence in everything because i care the sight from other
i'm not happy to living my life like this
i try my best to chance my attitude
but what i get is zero
and now the love is gone

ANXIETY

ooo0...

monday is going to pass soon
nothing special to blog today actually
lolzz
my life is such bored cause i'm just stay at home for whole day
i'm just like an aunty who are in climacteric ==;
SAD CASE
sound so sad?
haha... it's funny
what i think the most is:
what can i do in the next minute?
just keep asking myself for everyday

sienzzzzzz aaaaaa....

GOODBYE

o0OOPsss....
anothers sunday gone and the new week come
i'm so damn tired
it's really tired man
i didnt sleep well yesterday night
or maybe say that not enough sleeping is the better way
haha
cause i went out "pou" with my bestie
i like to stick with them
lolzzz...
my lecturer come to see me at my working place today
i'm so suprise and glad to see her
i miss them much
my lecturer,my classmates,my schoolmates and my friends
haha,i'm regret that i'll leave school soon
haiz... i miss the time we spent together...

say goodbye to college's life?

VEXED

why will we become like a stranger?
the distance between us become more and more far
izzit i'm too disgusting?
you dont even know that how much i care about you
i hope to be your closer friend
but i think you ignore me at all?

why should i'm still reluctant to leave?

DESPOND

im a wierdie
i yearn for stop my STPM in the beginning
now i got chance not to study in STPM anymore but i hate to part with...
sweat... ==;
why should i be irresolute so?
why should i think so much ?
i admit that i didn't try my best to get a good result
i had run away from the responsibility as a student
i had evade from fact
i'm so timid
i hate myself so cowardly
and what can i do for now is just follow the mandate of heaven
then comply with the popular wishes of the people...

COWER

WTH

i had received a call from my college this morning
the official ask me whether i'm still with them or not
this is all because of my poor attendence in the class
i had waste many time to play around while im in secondary school
i thought i can do well in others part
but im FAILED
i had no idea what can i do in the future
no planning at all
i try to think so many things before
but all is a useless point
and i make myself feel so unhappy
all people around worry about me
worry about my future
what is the point for me to think so much?
it's not satisfiable

I HATE THIS PART

Should i quit?
between
what can i do after i quit?
i worry i'll regret
i know myself well
im surely will regret what i resolved
but still i need to do it
it's so.... damn sad
hard to express my feeling
i hate to part with my loved
i felt so sorry to many people you know?
my parent, my friend, all people around me
even myself too


F*** off my life